When I was in college, it gave some insulation from the real world. After graduation, I entered the workforce in retail and gradually started to become disillusioned with society in general. Naturally, this started my process of waking up. I started looking for knowledge, new modes of thinking.
One of my first "conscious" books was Golden Age of the Moor, around 2015, Stanley Poole's Moorish book, and Chancellor William's book. It's funny, I didn't really come strong into the Moorish thing until 2023, but it's no coincidence those were some of the first books I started reading when I started to awaken.
But eventually, the need to work full time meant I actually stopped reading for several years. I still read easy to digest things like Japanese manga, but actual books were few and far between. Or rather, I should say that I always read books when I could, but they weren't really metaphysical. Mostly history based stuff like the Taliban, Stalin and other world dictators, melanated history, etc. It wasn't until I discovered Bobby Hemmitt and Brother Panic Lectures in 2020, where they gave out interesting metaphysic books by the dozens, that my mindset really started to get upgraded!
But before I discovered real metaphysic teachers, I was listening to a lot of YouTubers, which means I was exposed to a lot of inverted agents. I found the "Pro-black" side of YouTube. I went through the many dramas like with Phil Advise Show caught with a wight wife, Brother Polight, and their ilk.
However, I left the "pro-black" community back in 2017. I realize now it's because too many speakers focused on dead, unspiritual (hylic) human behavior. On the same played out subjects, the same gender war tip. Like, how many times do we have to complain about black single mothers and young black male gang bangers? Why do we focus on like the same low hanging fruit, the same five subjects over and over?
None of this stuff means anything spiritually. Just unproductive rage bait. But there were other problems I started to have with the videos I watched.
Celebrities
First, "black" news media YouTubers stayed using celebrities as a model of melanated people. So many would focus solely on "black" celebrity gossip. But my new idea is that a lot of these so called "black" celebrities aren't even the race they appear as. And even for the ones who are, they have no loyalty to the race they appear to look like. The freemasonic, sexually inverted culture of the celebrities and the influencers don't care about race. They are all one clan.
For example, the YouTubers would act like because some of these transexual celebrities are in an interracial relationship, that reflects on the "black" race.
In my opinion, the society of the celebrities and influencers is different from ours. Hell, these people aren't even the GENDER they appear as. Don't use them as the model for ANYTHING, especially not real biological gendered people. The celebrity and influencer lives are scripted. All of their drama is serving the purpose they supposed to- making you angry. Has anyone ever thought about why so much of their mundane lives and thoughts get plastered publicly for everyone to react to?
They give us all these news stories of celebrities that might not even be true. Hell, they families might not even be dysfunctional on that level. Remember, they can literally tell us anything of these scripted lives and we just be believing every word of it.
Every TV show must be scrutinized for propaganda, even the ones that "seem" to be on the side of the people. Again, these "black" actors are NOT real melanated men and women! All shows on television are programming with actors. If they convinced you of anything in those shows, they did their job. For instance, our people actually become disillusioned with either melanated men or women based off some shit they seen in a movie, ran by Hollywood that HATES us! Of course, you will always be painted in a bad light!
Many speakers use so many random examples from social media that is full of these inverted agents to prove a point. Melanated people need to stop doing this. These online inverts are agent provocateurs harvesting your energy over non-issues. They have you think some phenomenon is happening when it isn't, and they are trying to convince you that is reality.
For example, most black women I know still do not want Wight or East Asian men even with the media trying to program them at every turn. Even the dumb easily programmed masses don't go as easily for interracial as you may think. Step out of major cities like New York City and it is really not that common. But the YouTubers I mentioned see some inverted celebrity on Twitter or the TV with another race and just assume that plagues the entire race.
Stop getting riled up over every little thing on the internet. Dead Internet Theory is real. Half the shit you getting mad over is bot-created content and deep fakes. The occultist takes all of this into consideration and does not react but observe.
Sure, the dumb dead masses follow the general society programming usually, but that is not a "black man" and "black woman" thing. Most people of all races are dumb and easily programmed. Wight, Asian, you name it. That is the nature of this planet at this current time period. Most people are asleep. Aseer Duke of Tiers in his Et Ibi Jacet Frica Part 1 video recounts how 85-90 percent of people have no internal monologue. Of course, the people will follow anything the media tells them.
It is improving, because we are in a time that people about to be woken up whether they want to or not, but only little by little. Even Brother Panic before his passing admitted that he realized only a few people "make it out" in each decade. It's not all at once.
Depopulation
There was also a lot of fear-based parroting going on depopulation on YouTube. I say parrot, because people parrot shit without doing any actual research.
Black people ain't going nowhere and have been here since time immemorial. The bloodline is already here and been here and never left, which is why they are ramping up the interracial propaganda to level 10. Stop all this fear based depopulation crap agents are scaring you with. Over 80% of melanated people are with each other according to FBI stats (not saying this source makes it official, but even the elites trying to program us, their own official stats say they are not that successful). Melanated people actually do interracial dating a lot less than the media would have you believe. Just because every commercial shows a black man and a white woman, black woman with a white man, etc. does not mean that is reality.
Again, not saying there ain't no melanated men and women who act like this, but they ain't the average melanated person in my opinion. This is a small subset of the population. Most by and large still desire their own race. Hell, a lot that do "crossover" come back disillusioned because the other races be so racist towards them.
I can agree with this: there is a lot of self-hatred and unresolved trauma in the "black" community. But even Bobby Hemmitt mentioned counterfeit spirits. There are melanated people that look like us but really aren't. We don't all come from the same tribe. Because of this, I realized we can harp on certain "black people" all day about their behavior, but if that is their nature due to being a counterfeit, a hylic, or the result of living in this society where their entire race is in Prisoner of War status, let's just say I save my emotions for something actually worth worrying over. I don't blame the effect; I blame the cause.
Your Current Vibration
A lot of engagement with these topics are based on the level of your mind.
In 2015, I would think all of the aforementioned topics were hot shit since I was just starting to come into consciousness. But as you keep going further and further, and especially once you study occultists like Bobby Hemmit and Brother Panic, you start to not really care about what other people are doing. You no longer concern yourself with the behavior of NPCs, whether they are your same race or not. Because our time here is a journey of self. If the masses are fucked up, let them be and worry about yourself. Stop trying to save (or denounce) everyone else when you don't even have your own life together. Hell, Bobby said even the depredation of our race is divine. We had to fall to evolve. You don't evolve from perfection.
Most of the YouTubers on the gender war thing subscribed to the fake slavery agenda. Many used certain terms like bedwench, a term I don't care for. One, the term assumes the slavery narrative really existed like we have been told. But even so, most "buck-breaking" and "bedwenching" was the result of rape and other nonconsensual circumstances. When did we turn such a serious topic into something to throw as an epithet at other black people we disapprove of so casually? I am of the opinion that the historical diluting of our race was usually not something desired or consensual. We fall into the gender war looking for one side of the gender to blame but are actually besmirching our ancestors by assuming they hated each other (male vs female) simply because a bunch of modern invert agents have convinced you of some fabricated gender war.
Also, as mentioned before, my understanding is that not all melanated people are really "black". Many look like us but are artificial. What Bobby Hemmitt called "counterfeits", from the Gnostics. A lot of these people actually seeded the beginning of the gender war stuff of history. They hate real people who are actually their true biological gender. And that same mindset continues with these modern inverted agents. It was interesting to hear Bobby and Panic mention this, because most of the FBA, "Pro-black" YouTubers talk as if most "black" people are the same tribe/ species and then decry how "black" people are never on code (like we are one monolith that should all think the same).
Racism
Almost all black media news outlets focus on hating wight people. There is nothing wrong with treating racism like the scourge that it is, but there is a concerted effort to have melanated people base their entire understanding of themselves based on some newcomer race that hasn't even been around for most of human history.
The more you do the knowledge, you don't give a fuck about no "white" man. When I realized how insignificant they are (most of their history is a lie, and they did not "conquer" the entire melanated world without help from melanated sellouts) and how recent their race is (Island of Moreau, Frankenstein, Yakub theories), I almost instantly stopped paying them any real attention. Also, they shouldn't even be called "white". White means sovereign. It was a title that used to be applied to melanated males exclusively. White was also one of the Moorish dynasties. Aseer the Duke of Tiers made me realize how the concepts of "black" and "white" are reversed to begin with. Wait till you learn "black" slavery had absolutely nothing to do with the melanated race like we are told!
I like to think that both melanated man AND woman are accountable for our current racial predicament. After all, the Yakub priesthood that created the other races wasn't just one man, but an entire priesthood of several melanated men and women.
But an even higher interpretation of that is that we were meant to fall to evolve. We can sit here and point fingers about which gender destroyed the race more and more when the nature of this place (Earth) IS to decay and get destroyed for a new world over and over again. If we fell, it's because our vibration started falling over time simply because the nature of this realm demands it. Even the Bible says you shouldn't try and make heaven on earth, because it's destined to get destroyed. There is nothing eternal here. The quantum world is what is eternal.
Because of this higher understanding of our circumstances, I can't take any "black" speaker seriously when they talk down their own people to a degree. It automatically makes it sound like they have something personal against their own people, and usually this is revealed to be true. You can just hear some bitter spirit come through, and it ain't good. I started watching the conscious teachers to get away from that gender war crap, but also these fake "Captain Save-Black People" types that only cared about YouTube donations and monetization that were full of self hatred. Why do so many of these YouTubers claim to want to help their people, yet have such an obvious bitterness against them?
Inner Work
I stopped watching a lot of those YouTube agents back in 2017 because I noticed the subtle dislike of melanated men and women. That's one thing all agents have in common. They hate biological men and women.
I fuck with Brother Panic always emphasizing inner work, because these are imbalances we don't even consciously see in ourselves unless someone else points it out.
At the end of the day, we are all human and the subconscious biases will come out one way or another. Most people are not aware of these biases and will go on the defense when you notice them. Brother Panic's lectures on the ego and subconscious mind were some of the best works in the conscious movement, period, in my opinion.
That's one of the best things I loved about Bobby and Panic. They didn't really fuck with the gender shit too much. The focus is on you realizing and becoming God, not worried about the same 5 topics the news wants you to- welfare, single mothers, gay people, these gang banger clones, interracial dating, etc. A lot of melanated people don't realize they using the same talking points of the unconscious "wight" masses (the so-called white supremacists). They literally only talk about the above topics because that's what the news talks about. This was evidence to me that both "white" and "black" people are following the same CIA created script. I expect more from conscious, melanated speakers.
In 2017, a breakthrough for me was realizing I only cared about those news topics because everyone else in the pro-black community did. Then I realized this shit is boring and has no real solution other than to make you angry all the time. I started searching for something else and found a Bobby Hemmitt lecture. And the rest is history! That Cyclomancy shit Brother Panic talked about, real power instead of energizing some useless human worries? Now you have my undivided attention! I literally spent the entirety of 2020-2023 just listening to their lectures and reading books from the booklists.
I wanted something new. I now know why during live streams where Panic allowed the rare comment, Brother Panic would get really annoyed when someone asked him about "black women's hair" or "interracial dating". His response would always be, "Who cares? What are YOU doing to transform?" When I first came from the "pro-black" communities, I was offended by these answers because I thought they were important topics. But I realized that when you start messing with real knowledge, you don't even touch these topics of the dead masses anymore with a 10-foot pole. They don't matter. We just been told they did.
Lastly, it was not all bad YouTubers that I found. Some, like the Radical Sister, and Madd Black TV, I still watch a video here and there a few times a year. You had to really dig to find smaller, real melanated YouTubers that cared about their people and not monetization. But in a way, even these two, I don't watch as much of anymore, because I just wanted to hear more metaphysical topics. Again, now that celebrities, wight people, and interracial stuff has become a non-issue, 95% of content no longer interests me. I really want to listen to things that improve knowledge of self and personal power at this point. In general, I am listening to others a lot less as time goes on and doing more reading and writing on my own.
